有泪也哭不出

Today was the ultimate. Saw this coming, but the moment when it happened,

I don’t mean to disappoint, Mr. L. You’re a good tutor, and I’ll do my best now, though that sld have been the case long ago. Excuses out of the way.  Time really is not on my side.

Disappointment is one of the most overwhelming emotions.

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Bad day, low self esteem. Conscious of self. I’m weak, has been weak. But I know the weak doesn’t always stay weak. Got so much to say; I doubt my feelings. I’m confused. And today he – . And I dreamt that – . It ain’t suppose to be lidat, or maybe its the way society works. What I need now is maturity.

Not emo, just that there are downturns. It’s normal, so I don’t need consolation. The last thing I will allow is self-pity.